What composition I am going about is a method getting a self-abased juvenile to reserve a ideal prospect of what he loves but dare not to maintain it. He loves his girlfriend but there is always something anxious between them like a gigantic gap. This composition elaborates a mean solving this problem. That is to blind the boy's one eye himself.
The sequelae of the broken eye is a symptom called illusion, somewhat as the " illusional thigh" in psycology when someone feel the somehow pain all the time just in the wound after he has lost his one thigh and be fixed with an artificial limb. The illusion is the sight just a frame before he stabbed his eye. The sight maybe his girlfriend's smile so his can keep it permanently is his mind.The only thing he should do is to stab his eye with the finger himself before his GF.
It sounds a bit ruthless.But I find most self-abased do is just to abuse themselves. Do they consider that as the only way rescue them from the miseries? In last mouths there was a student committed suicide jumping down from his domitory coz he dropped out of some courses.In this case, the school was the strong and he was the weak. Why he still hurt himself again with no revolt against who had hurt him? What he did was just abusing himself one more time? We are all so tiny and we dare not to strike the strong back. So what we dare to do is just to harm tiny us again to let the anger out .
This is just a conceptual method. In general, people preserve images with the help of photos, videos etc.. But it's easy to destroy them using fire. They also get broken as time flies. But if one embeds a image into one's body,it will last through his life, especially those of inferiority and dread to do something positive to change. I name it "the fantastic camera" cause it uses genuine body to construct a private camera.
Now the stuff confusing me is to trace the whole process of this perception.I made a video to show how this occurs on a 24-year-old student.But coz my major is not medicine science, all I know is it involves cerebral cortex....So ...er, perhaps I should get someone to depict the process..
